This is a new day. A new life. A new beginning. I am happy were I am today in my life. I hope to be better in about a year, health, eating right, exercising and feeling much better. I will be off a lot of medications, I won't have to see so many Dr's to see, it will just be wonderful. I'm starting out at 279lb today, I have had, hot chicken broth, hot tea, cold tea and water. I felt a little sick after my 10min walk, so I had to take a 1/2 of a nausea pill and I feel better. I will go on my other 2 10min walks today as well. Just going slow. My stomac is very sore, but the fluids are going down nicely. This is my new journey I will be blogging. Judy 12/30/11

Angel/Buddy

I felt it appropriate to change the name of my blog to "Angel/Buddy". Most of my post are about 3 wonderful people in my life that are Angels and my Buddy. How ironic that is. It gives me chills to think about that. Thanks for being there for me, you help me more that you know.

Dedicated to Trudy, Terri and Kaye.

Jude xoxoxoxo

How I feel

I LOVE YOU TRUDY, KAYE AND TERRI!

Tattoo's

It was in June 2008 in Pocatello Idaho around 10pm. There we were, Terri, Trudy, Kaye and myself Jude driving down the road just a talking and laughing and having so much fun enjoying each other company. I said out of the blue, I wonder where there is a tattoo parlor? We had talked about it in our emails before we got together, and someone said "I didn't think we were really going to do it". And then it happened, on the left side of the road "TATTOO'S", I screamed at Kaye, "there's one, turn, turn, turn". She did, and there we sat in front of the Tattoo shop, some of us happy, some of us in shock that we were really going in. We went in. It was right before 10pm and they closed at 10pm, we didn't care we were getting tattoo's!! We were all excited at different levels. They had books to the left of tattoo's you could look at to pick one out that you liked, we all went right over and started looking at all the tattoo's. It was so much fun. Terry picked hers out first, I thought it was so cool, she picked out an "R" for her husband Randy's name and had it put on her big toe. What imagination that was, I just think that is so neat of her to do that. And then it was Trudy's turn, she got a musical note (I can't think of the name of it) on her toe as well. I thought how wonderful that is, she plays the piano and organ, has always done that for as long as I've known her, cool Trudy, just too cool! And then it was my turn, I have always wanted a yellow rose, so that is what I got on my ankle, not too big, but I love it. Yellow roses are my favorite rose. Now I have on myself! And then there was one of us left, Kaye. She just didn't find anything she liked at least well enough to put on her body for the rest of her life. I commend her for that, having style and grace not to get one, when we all did. Hat's off to you Kaye. We thought we were the brave ones, and all along it was you that was brave. If you would of found something that just jumped out at you I'm sure you would of got one, if you don't find anything your like then you don't get a tattoo, and that's what you did. Here we though we where the unique one's getting tattoo's, but it was you that was unique for not getting one. Way to go, we love you for that. It just wasn't your time, but you know what, we all had a blast anyway didn't we. And you know what else, we all were a delight! lololol. That will always be a memory of the past, us all being a delight, that is too funny. The tattoo parlor stayed open for us till midnight, when they closed at 10pm when we pulled up outside there doors. What a wonderful tattoo artist we had, he was so young and so talented. His girlfriend or wife called to see where he was, and all she heard was 4 women talking and a laughing in the background, I'm sure that went over well. I asked if she would like to talk to me so I would verify he was still at work, he said "on no, on no that's ok". Hahahahaha. To be young again, when you think everything matters. So there we were four 50 year olds, just a talking and telling stories, not having a care in the world, what a wonderful memory. Our tattoo's in Pocatello, Idaho, and Kaye being the braves of all by, not going with the crowd, and standing on her own. What a strong women. And then we got back in the car and just drove down the road, just a laughing and a talking right where we left off.

LIFE AS WE KNOW IT

SO THIS IS LIFE AS WE KNOW IT

TERRI IS HAVING ISSUES WITH HER X SON IN LAW, DEALING WITH CUSTODY FIGHT WITH HER GRANDSON. TRYING TO HELP HER DAUGHTER THE BEST SHE CAN DURING THIS ORDEAL. TERRI IS ALWAYS HELPING HER FAMILY WITH LOVE AND SUPPORT.

TRUDY HAS A ELBOW INJURY FROM WALKING HER DOGS. A VERY PAINFUL ONE AT THAT. SHE HAS BEEN GOING TO THE DOCTOR FOR A WHILE TO GET HER ELBOW TREATED, STILL VERY PAINFUL. I HOPE RELIEF IS IN SIGHT FOR YOU.

KAYE HAS THE PAINFUL DECISION OF CHANGING JOBS AFTER BEING AT ISU FOR 28 YEARS. BUT I FEEL YOUR SANITY IS WORTH MORE THAT THE JOB AND THE PEOPLE AT ISU. WHAT A HARD THING TO DECIDE, GO WITH YOUR HEART, IT NEVER LIES. YOU'LL KNOW WHAT IS RIGHT. A CHANGE CAN DO WONDERS IN YOUR LIFE, YOU WILL SEE. IF YOU SHOULD TAKE THE JOB, RELIEF WILL COME INSTANTLY. MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU. YOU WILL DO THE RIGHT THING, IT'S JUST TAKING THE FIRST STEP OF ACCEPTING THE POSITION. WHAT A WONDERFUL OPPORTUNITY TO FIND PEACE IN YOUR LIFE. I KNOW HOW HARD IT IS FOR YOU. THIS IS THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL.

MYSELF, I HAVE ISSUES WITH MY BACK. VERY PAINFUL, ON A SCALE OF 1 TO 10, WHEN IT IS THE WORST IT'S AN 11 !!! I'M UNABLE TO WALK IN THE STORES, I HAVE TO USE THE GO CART. I NEVER THOUGHT I'D BE THAT PERSON DOING THAT AT 51, MAYBE 81. THIS HAS INTERFERED WITH MY DAILY LIFE. EFFECTIVE EVERY ASPECT. I AM UNABLE TO GO TO THE STORE WITH SANDY AND JUST WALK AROUND, I CAN'T EXERCISES LIKE I WANT TO,

I CAN'T WALK ACROSS THE STREET TO THE OFFICE WITHOUT HAVING TO SIT DOWN WHEN I GET TO THE STAIRS TO GO UP TO MY APARTMENT. I MEAN IT GOES ON AND ON, I CAN'T STAND SAYING " I CAN'T" ALL THE TIME. FOR THE FIRST TIME I HAVE SOME DOCTORS THAT ARE WILLING TO FIND THE CAUSE OF MY PAIN AND REALLY WANT TO HELP ME AT THE PAIN INSTITUTE OF ARIZONA. I AM SO THANKFUL FOR THEM, I JUST HAVE TO HOLD ON A LITTLE MORE WHILE THEY DO THERE TESTING. FROM THE TIME I HAVE STARTED THIS BLOG, MY BACK IS STARTING TO HURT. IT'S TERRIBLE. I FEEL RELIEF IS AROUND THE CORNER. THEY SAY THINGS COME TO THOSE THAT WAIT, I THINK THIS IS TRUE FOR ALL OF US. WE JUST HAVE TO HOLD OUT A LITTLE LONGER, OUR ANSWERS ARE IN VIEW.

SO THERE WE HAVE IT, OUR LIVES IN A NUTSHELL. ALL OF US DEALING WITH DIFFERENT ISSUES AND MORE, BUT THIS IS OUT LIFE. WE CAN CHOOSE TO FIGHT OR GIVE UP, AND WE ALL HAVE CHOSEN TO FIGHT. WHAT WONDERFUL CHARACTER WE ALL HAVE. WE ARE STRONG, INDEPENDENT AND WILLING TO FIGHT FOR WHAT IS OURS. YOU ALL ARE WONDERFUL, AND A GREAT INSPIRATION TO ME.

THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH FOR SHOWING ME YOUR STRENGTHS. LIFE IS A JOURNEY AND WE ARE IN THIS TOGETHER.

MUCH LOVE

JUDE XOXOXOXO

My friends came back to me

Everyday it just amazes me how my spirits are lifted knowing my 3 best friends came back to me in my life. You have brought joy back to my life and a belief that anything is possible in this world. You make me happy knowing your there, knowing we can share our stories with each other with out criticism, only laughter, and that is the greatest feeling in the world. It could not of happened to me at a better time, I need support and I get it from my 3 sisters friends. I've shared thinks I thought I could never share with anyone, the trust is strong and the love is forever. You are wonderful people, kind, thoughtful and considered of others, all of us would do anything for anyone, we are primary caregivers, it's in our blood. It's amazing all we get accomplished in the world everyday. It's a pleasure to be apart of your lives, you inspire me and make me want to do better. I thank you for that and all you do. I love you and care so much for you. We are back together in the same place in time, just a little older. Time is what we have, and each other.

Much Love Always
Jude xoxoxo

Just Do It

Sooner or later, you start taking yourself seriously. You know when you need a break. You know when you need a rest. You know what to get worked up about, and what to get rid of. And you know when it's time to take care of yourself, for yourself. To do something that makes you stronger, faster, more complete because you know it's never too late to have a life. And never too late to change one.
JUST DO IT