Shadow

I found a puppy today at the bottom of my stairs. She just crawled up in my arms, I just turned right around and brought he into my apartment. I was on the way to Physical Therapy, I called Dr Melissa and told her I'm calling in Dog Sick. She just laughed and understood totally why I wasn't coming in.
I named her Shadow because she would not leave my side, she is black with white and tan on her chest. She must be about 6 months old. I left her in the apartment while I went to Fry's, which is our grocery store. I bought her dog food, a collar (red), some bones, begging strips and that's it. She just gobbled up the food, I had to keep picking the food up so she wouldn't chock, of course she didn't understand why I was doing that. She drank water, had to put that up too, she was just staving I guess. I tried to put a rope around her neck to take her out and she was having none of that. So I took her out with the rope as if we where playing and she stayed by my side the whole time we where outside, she loves playing with the rope, all the cat toys and I gave a blue bunny, she just drags that around the house.
Buddy and Angel are not sure what to think. Buddy likes her, they sit together and touch noses but then Buddy runs into the bedroom, and Shadow just chases her. Angel on the other hand, has not left the bed. Shadow has gotten on the bed with Angel, and Angel lets Shadow how close she can come, and then Shadow just backs off.
We have been up since 1:30am, playing, going out side, cleaning up dog accidents (thank goodness she goes on the tile), I mean I wish she wouldn't go in the house at all, but if she has to go, I'm glad it's on the tile. My floors sure are clean now !
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So now I'm up and everyone has been asleep for about 30 min, thank goodness.
I love her so much, but I have deiced it's just not the right time for a dog for me, she barks and I can't jeopardize my job with that. I'm still decluttering my house there really isn't room for her to romp and play. I won't be able to last being up and down all night, that will just put me into the ground. There is many more things, but more importantly, Angel is the boss of me and Buddy, and what she says goes. I can't have her not getting off the bed, I mean that is just not fair to her. I'm taking Shadow to the Shelter, this is the first time I have ever had to do this. Having an animal is a responsibility, not only for the new animal but with you the one's you have had for a long time. My heart aches, she is just a love. I'm taking all of her stuff I bought for her, a towel I sit on at my computer so she can still smell me, and there you have it. A sad day for me, but I know she will have no trouble being adopted out. " I'll let them know that she gets along with cats, needs alot of toys, she is not house broken, you need to take her out when she gets up from her nap and she loves to chase her rope. She will follow you when you go out side when you have the rope."
So were in overtime this week, toady's my day off so I work 4 hr from 6am - 10:30am. Then to the shelter we go.
I just needed to share my emotions with you about Shadow. I know it doesn't campier to any of you all's problems, but this is my issue I have to deal with today.
Thanks for listening.
9/23/08

A RESTED SOUL

A RESTED SOUL I MET FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE. I COULD NOT FIGURE OUT WHY I WOULD GO AND TALK TO HER, AND WHEN SHE WOULD LEAVE WORK, I WOULD STAND IN HER OFFICE AND JUST LOOK AT ALL HER THINGS, THE SENSE OF PEACE AND TRANQUILITY WAS STILL THERE. IT TOOK ME A LONG TIME TO FIGURE OUT WHAT WAS GOING ON. AND THEN LIKE A WAVE, IT JUST ENGULFED MY BODY. THE HOLE THING WAS SHOWN TO ME IN A WAY I COULD UNDERSTAND. I WAS NEVER ABLE TO TALK TO ANYONE IN HER POSITION, AND SHE MADE IT SO EASY FOR ME. JUST SO CALM, WHEN ALL AROUND HER WAS CHANGING. SHE TOOK THE TIME OUT OF HER BUSY SCHEDULE, AND TALKED TO ME, ACTUALLY STOP WHAT SHE WAS DOING AND LOOKED AT ME. SHE MADE ME FEEL LIKE A PERSON. I WOULD GO TO HER OFFICE AND I WOULD SAY"IT'S JUST ME", "IF YOUR BUSY I'LL COMEBACK" AND SHE WOULD SAY NO HAVE A SEAT. ( I WAS AN UN CONFIDENT PERSON AT THAT TIME.) AND WE WOULD TALK. AND SO THIS WENT ON, AND THEN IT CAME TO ME I'M STARTING TO FEEL BETTER ABOUT MYSELF. I DIDN'T KNOW I FELT BAD ABOUT MYSELF, SO MY SELF IMAGE STARTED TO CHANGE. I BEGAN TO TALK TO MORE PEOPLE, IN AN ENVIRONMENT WHERE SHOULD NOT TALK, THE MORE YOU WORK THE MORE MONEY YOU MADE. NOT ME BLAH...BLAH....BLAH. I DON'T KNOW HOW SOMEONE CAN TALK ON THE PHONE ALL DAY, GO TO WORK AT NIGHT AND WON'T SHUT UP. THERE WERE THERE WONDERFUL YOUNG LADIES THAT WALK BY ALL THE DESK, OH NO THERE NOT HAVING THAT, SO I WOULD TO SAY PART OF A SENTENCE WHEN THEY WENT BY THE FIRST TIME AND THE LAST PART OF THE SENTENCE WHEN THEY WENT BY AGAIN. YES THEY WOULD STOP FOR 3 SEC FROM TIME TO TIME. AM I NEW IN THE PROOF DEPARTMENT!!HELL NO MY 2ND JOB WAS PROOF IN 1975, THIS WAS ALWAYS THE JOB I WOULD HAVE TO HELP MAKE ENDS MEET. I FOUND OUT I CAN'T KEY WORTH A CRAP!!! I MOST PEOPLE THAT WOULD CRUSH, BUT I HAVE TAKEN AWAY SO MUCH MORE FROM THAT JOB THAN I CAME WITH. IT WAS A SELF WAKENING EXPERIENCE, SURROUNDED BY ANGELS.ONE OF THEM IS JUST A GEM. THANK YOU FROM MY HEART.
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A RESTED SOUL

I MET A RESTED SOUL FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE. I COULD NOT FIGURE OUT WHY I WOULD GO AND TALK TO HER, AND WHEN SHE WOULD LEAVE WORK, I WOULD STAND IN HER OFFICE AND JUST LOOK AT ALL HER THINGS, THE SENSE OF PEACE AND TRANQUILITY WAS STILL THERE. IT TOOK ME A LONG TIME TO FIGURE OUT WHAT AS GOING ON. AND THEN LIKE A WAVE, IT JUST ENGULFED MY BODY AS TO WHAT WAS GOING ON. I WAS NEVER ABLE TO TALK TO ANYONE IN HER POSITION, AND SHE MADE IT SO EASY FOR ME. JUST SO CALM, WHEN ALL AROUND HER WAS CHANGING. SHE TOOK THE TIME OUT OF HER BUSY SCHEDULE, AND TALKED TO ME, ACTUALLY STOP WHAT SHE WAS DOING AND LOOKED AT ME. SHE MADE ME FEEL LIKE A PERSON. I WOULD GO TO HER OFFICE AND I WOULD SAY

"IT'S JUST ME", "IF YOUR BUSY I'LL COMEBACK" AND SHE WOULD SAY NO HAVE A SEAT. ( I WAS AN UN CONFIDENT PERSON AT THAT TIME.) AND WE WOULD TALK. AND SO THIS WENT ON, AND THEN IT CAME TO ME I'M STARTING TO FEEL BETTER ABOUT MYSELF. I DIDN'T KNOW I FELT BAD ABOUT MYSELF, SO MY SELF IMAGE STARTED TO CHANGE. I BEGAN TO TALK TO MORE PEOPLE, IN AN ENVIRONMENT WHERE SHOULD NOT TALK, THE MORE YOU WORK THE MORE MONEY YOU MADE. NOT ME BLAH...BLAH....BLAH. I DON'T KNOW HOW SOMEONE CAN TALK ON THE PHONE ALL DAY, GO TO WORK AT NIGHT AND WON'T SHUT UP. THERE WERE THERE WONDERFUL YOUNG LADIES THAT WALK BY ALL THE DESK, OH NO THERE NOT HAVING THAT, SO I WOULD TO SAY PART OF A SENTENCE WHEN THEY WENT BY THE FIRST TIME AND THE LAST PART OF THE SENTENCE WHEN THEY WENT BY AGAIN. YES THEY WOULD STOP FOR 3 SEC FROM TIME TO TIME. AM I NEW IN THE PROOF DEPARTMENT!!

HELL NO MY 2ND JOB WAS PROOF IN 1975, THIS WAS ALWAYS THE JOB I WOULD HAVE TO HELP MAKE ENDS MEET. I FOUND OUT I CAN'T KEY WORTH A CRAP!!! I MOST PEOPLE THAT WOULD CRUSH, BUT I HAVE TAKEN AWAY SO MUCH MORE FROM THAT JOB THAN I CAME WITH. IT WAS A SELF WAKENING EXPERIENCE, SURROUNDED BY ANGELS.

ONE OF THEM IS JUST A GEM. THANK YOU FROM MY HEART.

9-13-08

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME, I'M 14YRS CLEAN AND SOBER TODAY..

New Revelation

My work at Chase Bank was much more than that. I met for the first time a Rested soul. A person I have great respect for. We connected
and found out we both believe in Angels. Although my work there was intended to make my out of pocket cost for my Insurance, it was much more than that I found out. What a wonderful revelation that took place in my life. By watching these three people work together, which is something I have witness at a bank, they taught me the meaning of work ethics and self confidence. I took away with much more than I came with. This self confidence has help me to deal with my past and realize I need to live for now, right now, not the past, not with what people have done to me, forgive them all. Take a deep breath, blow it out and let go. I have, the pain is gone. A break threw in my life, and there is me, myself and I. I now work on myself. After working on my self image, I am looking forward to a relationship, it will be the first one that is a healthy one. What a wonderful feeling that brings me. My reward to myself with my new body image, is to sky dive naked. That will shed all my shield I used for so long to hide my body. So I in fact left the Bank with far more in which I came. What a wonderful thing, I'm so glad I could see this. Now I go on with my life, so much to look forward too. I'm glad to be alive.
09-13-08